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News for this week

I’m trying to do this as a weekly update. I mean, I’m just too forgetful to do it much more often and I feel like such a slacker for not doing it more. Anywho…

I haven’t started weighing again yet. I’m trying to focus on eating regularly and then I will get back to weigh-ins and all. I want to do like a friend of mine did and take some “before” pics that I may or may not post on here…I may be too chicken for that. However, I do feel very well so that has to count for something.

Kay wasn’t sleeping so well last week but last night she didn’t wake and she’s taking two long naps today. I hope this will be a break in that cycle and a return to her normal pattern. I’m sure we’ll all be happier if that is the case. As a matter of fact, she woke just as I started this and is still happily playing with her various toys all on her own. I’m so very lucky that my daughter seems to have so much down without us having to do a thing to teach it to her. I’d like to think she inherited my powers…or former powers, of observation and has just absorbed all this from her parents’ habits but some how I think it’s all her. She’s just wonderful, silly, smart and beautiful. Hehe, oh I could just gobble her up she’s so awesome. Hehe.

Okay, enough of that…I digress. I’m getting back to getting more done in the week. Hopefully this will mean a return to hobbies and reading…maybe even parks and other such diversions…I really want to go biking on the Pinellas trail or walk around Epcot. My plan is to get my sewing machine fixed and start a patchwork quilt for Kay’s toddler bed as my dive back into my hobbies. I want to do a Tetris pattern but we’ll see. Other than that I have some high quality smut to real…I’ll be starting another Katie MacAlister. She is funny as all get out and even writes some young adult books…probably detective types but I really want to check them out and get some for Kay when she gets older…

Most of my friends seem to have gone back to or started college now that I’m done. It reminds me that if I want to be a librarian then I should get my MLS. I dunno. I love to learn so much and I’ve spent so much time in school that it seems a shame to not go on but I don’t care about a career and my natural inquisitiveness is at the heart of my scholastic interests which doesn’t require the academic form to utilize it so….basically what I’m saying is that I don’t intend to get a job and my current pursuits don’t require added degrees so why not save the dough? Oh, but what if something bad happens? Sure, I’d be okay for a while on insurance refunds but that’s hardly a life for me and Kay…should I, instead, get teacher certified so I could be a history/ social science teacher? Maybe I could do that and then get a MLS so I could also be the school librarian? *le sigh*

Anyway, I’ve been writing this off and on all day and it’s time to get Kay to bed. *salute* G’night peeps!!

Kay got a good report today. 19lbs and 4oz., 27inches long, and developmentally closer to 9 months. Makes sense, she sure wears that size now. Need to go grab some more clothes for her again. I tried her clothing on her to see how it was really fitting and much didn’t. She has an okay amount of day clothing but she’s short on the jammies. Just the two I got yesterday as a matter of fact. She can have stage 2 food now and probably stage 3 in not long but she said to hold off on that. I just gave her a sippy cup with water as a training wheel deal but I’ll get juice for her this evening. She’s chewing on the thing but doesn’t really get anything or probably the point yet. Definitely not rejection but serious frustration since I took the top off and gave her a sip…she wants the water. She’s full on crawling, trying to reach up and pull herself up. I think she even knows her name but I’m not sure. She slept in her own crib, in her own room last night for the very first time. She slept like a dream and apparently even woke up to play and fell back to sleep on her own. I bet the parental snoring was keeping her up before. She’s doing wonderfully. She will stop in her tracks for music and singing and loves to be bounced around the pool. I’m so amazingly lucky! Last night was so hard though. I was worried that she was lonely but like Billy said, I was lonely, she was sleeping. She even took a long nap today in her crib. I think she likes it. She did however, get shots. Had a small fever that Tylenol and that nap seemed to help with but she is still cranky and it’s understandable. On that note, Mistress Kay summons her minion for first dinner.

Not a great day for me today. Mommy type troubles, womanly troubles, diet troubles...etc. GAH!!!!

Okay, now, with that said, on to other stuff. Hm...and what would that be...not sure.

Hey, do I come off as narcissistic? My shrink said that my story troubles come off a little like that. Like I'm trying to feed my ego by telling stories, any stories, to get attention. Maybe but I don't think so. I mean. It worked great in waitressing. You have a table and you be the person they need you to be so they will be happy and give you tips. Isn't that what it's about? You meet someone on a trip that you won't ever see again and you share stories to build a quick friendship and if you don't like your life, you make up the story that shows who you...right? That sounds like living out a fantasy, sorta, not narcissism... Meh, no wonder I never felt like I could be myself or that I even knew who I was. I couldn't, didn't and wouldn't have a chance to and now I'm stuck still figuring it out.

*sigh* Well enough of that line of thinking.

I'll write more when I've got better things to say...

<3 this shirt

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New friends, Yay!

Have new friends ftw! hehe. Lori and maybe her son and hubby too but I don't want to ASSume too much. Other than that, I'm feeling off. Probably because there's so much mess around me right now. House, bills, need car, want house. Grr, so hard on teh nesting. Gotta go, my 'ittle poop monster just gave a toot to make her parents proud. I'm betting she's making Mommy presents as I type. More update later.

Yea Verily

I suck. I suck at this whole keeping up with blogs and such dealio. Never was good, check out my LJ. Anyway, I spent far too much time updating that journal and posting... Will copy/ paste to here if you don't want to head over there and to save me shut eye time.

"Trying to get life back. On Weight watchers and down from 229 to 225. I actually went from 260 to 220 right after I lost the fluid retention after having Kay. I gained a bit after that when I could finally get back to FL after a long time in LA with my late father. But I'm back on and even walking with Kay in the stroller everyday for an hour or so...when it doesn't rain. I'm seeing a psychiatrist and on Lexapro. The psychiatrist, himself, doesn't really help me so much as just talking to a therapist and getting meds helped. I felt totally nuts, worse than in school...I couldn't control it like I did back then. A baby is more important than grades in school. I realize now that I'm kinda messed up in the head. I don't think right. I'm really discombobulated in there so it take me longer to do things, think things through and such. It's great for abstract thinking and coming up with interesting connections or new solutions but it's not so great for keeping it together. I have an impulse control disorder and I believe I have a mild attachment disorder or it might be borderline personality. They seem the most accurate but I can't really tell. All the therapist is interested in is the impulse control disorder though. That's why I came to him originally so that makes sense. Anyway, so I'm working on menus, a garage sale and a few other things. Trying to get organized and such. I really want to get all the mess out of Kay's room so that we can get her a bedroom set up. She's doing fine in the cosleeper that we have attached to our bed for now but she's getting too big for it. Have evidence. I so heart being her Mommy. Now that I have meds to keep me even, I have so much fun with her and I can be there for her when she's upset. There is also just something wonderful about going to sleep with Billy on one side and Kay on the right and waking up to Kay trying to stick her toes in her mouth and Billy trying to snuggle....those nights, those beautiful mornings are what it's all about."

Well, that's about it. Night!

Thanks Kali!

So cool, I just had to put it in here! Best kid pic evar! I so need to learn to knit :D

Soooo tired

Rock on. So, I'm up trying to get some stuff done while I can: i.e. baby asleep, Billy at Kit's birthday party. And I really want to sleep. I'm trying to get a menu made for next week so that I can get it tomorrow and not take all of Billy's first Father's day up with house chores. In fact, I chose to be the one to bring Kay home tonight so that Billy could play a bit longer. He's stayed longer than I thought that "a bit" would mean but this is all that I know I can do for his Father's day other than trying to have time open for him and family fun. Seems a tad lame but such is life and finances with a new baby. I'm even thinking that I could take Kay with me to get groceries while Billy sleeps in so that we can maybe go out to breakfast when he gets up. Anyway, so now I'm staring bleary-eyed at the computer screen in hopes of finding another tasty pork cutlet recipe. *le sigh* I so want a long deep sleep and to wake up getting oral and a pedicure....I know, TMI but I'm allowed to pout at midnight....

Random

And I sit here, brushing the gold from my hair
Wondering about the blue birds
Tasting the tail of my comet

And how do we wobble, skirting around on a fine line
Eating stars that are beyond time
Feeling sounds from our dreams

And I feel, meaning from things that are not mine
Water past gills of a strange fish
Breath in the lungs of my past

And I watch, flitting meaning that I shape
Songs I will love into sound
The comet that burns brightly new

....Okay, that was a very random sing song poem that floated to the surface of my brain while I was putting Kay to nap. It was easy to sing, the line just came up in my throat but that makes it hard to repeat much less write.

A new hope

So I'm ripping that title off, so who cares? Heh, anyway.

That's a great start. I'm actually starting over here. I'm a LJ transfer and it was swell but in the words of Rebecca Buck, the swellings gone down. I have a new daughter, and a new life to build for myself and my family so it's time to change the drapes and burn the rugs.

Unfortunately, my tiny master is calling so THIS has been my first post at my new online home. Have fun everyone and don't get any sand in yer cheeks.